How is it that when one is not meant to do something and tries the Universe seems to throw one obstacle after another in a way. I had been planning with a friend of mine to drive to QLD and see my friends and family. Well, closer the trip has started to come more obstacles are being thrown in a way. First my friend got sick and really had us all worried and I have taken almost two weeks off first to look after him and then just to have a rest and some free time for myself after many months of stress and trials. That is expensive as I work as a casual person and I only get paid for when I work.
Next my eye test revealed that I needed new glasses.... well just the lenses alone because of my prescription cost well over $ 600 A and that is without the frames. Then the gas, electricity and the phone bills arrived the same day. Well... needless to say the trip is off and somehow am disappointed, but also almost relieved. To my experience once one has to start swimming upstream like a salmon it is just not meant to be for reasons only known to the Higher Authority and if things are meant to happen they do and will without much effort as the Universe seemingly just supports and clears way for the plans for them to happen.
I obviously was meant to attend an ADFA ( Australian Defence Force Academy) Rec Day for Canteen at the end of this month as when I got the e-mail from the coordinator having only one place left for the Volunteers to go and as I called him if it still was avail he was happy to invite me along to play amongst the teenagers and the soldiers with their boats, rifle range and water obstacle course. Wow... I was happy as I am a big kid although rather stiff with age and the good ol' arthritis. The water obstacle course I might have to sit out, but I'll be wolf whistling all the way, heheh.... the ol' Witch I am.
So no QLD trip for this year, but hopefully the next. Bugger, but if the fates step in so then I listen because simply won't have the means to go.
Tomorrow I shall go for a picnic in a place called Vee Jasper and attempt to see and listen why all of a sudden after years I am called in by my intuition and the place. I shall also see if I will find some crystals.... see if Mother Earth gifts me with some.
Oh well, life is an adventure and it always does not go the way expected, but let go of the expectations and a surprise or two could be in the wind and around the corner. I remember with the Lifeline course years ago there was a saying that let go off the river bank, stop fighting the current and let the river take you where you are meant to go and so it shall. That is how I have attempted to live my life the past 2 weeks at least and I like it. No big plans, no expectations thus no disappointments... just go with the flow. We will see if and what is ahead of me if I trust enough to just float with the River of My Life.
Ciao,
BF13
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Monday, October 1, 2007
Winging it.....
Howdy and so on.... Dear Diary.
I am sitting here a little blank and almost in a zombie mode as I am sort of out of my body in my state of DON'T CARE, DON'T KNOW AND DON'T GIVE A DAMN. Plans seem to have this funny way of going way out of the of the order and am just shrugging my shoulders and throwing my hands in the air.
Last few weeks I have been planning to go to QLD to visit my family and friends.... well that's outta window it seems as I have now just no interest at this moment and I am suppose to drive off on the 1st of November. Finances, work, health and general dis-interest are standing in my way like a bloody brick wall that I just could not be bothered to climb over at the moment. I COULD get over it, but it just seems like too much bother at the moment. What is it in plans and me that when I plan they tend to stand on the head in the end and nothing seems to come out of them and when I don't plan life just seems to sweep me along in it's own rhythm and pace and I am just floating along doing whatever it is that I am doing at the time.
So I have resolved to wing it as the Masters are supposedly doing and just see way the River of My Life takes me. Surprises as long as they are pleasant and bring joy are good so this is what I am resolving in getting.... bugger, but that is a plan, too. Oh well, I will just sit and wait. Eventually the Heavens will show me the way I am suppose to travel. It seems I am in a sort of Hiatus at the moment. Quite before the storm is it or is it the eye of the storm...? I don't mind storms as long as they have a moderate power to cleanse and re-new a tired and worn out energy and replace the heavy and seemingly pointless existence with something fresh, new and vibrant. Blow the cobwebs out of one's life and being and wake me up from the deep slumber I seem to fall into every so often. It is time for the quite and then time for the action.
The World just keeps on turning and I on it with countless others whom also feel sleepy and lame. I actually don't care and don't find it too disturbing. It's like I have been placed inside a cocoon and am kept somewhat separate and all the sounds and surrounds seem muffled and separated from me. I look, but am removed from the masses and last week and this week am truly removed as am not even going to work, but am impulsed to stay home and cocoon myself so totally that even being in the shops to get milk is almost impossibly trying. What is going on in the World and especially in mine?
My higher friends Leyla and Zach have been quiet and very un-noticed. Hmmm.... talk about integrating totally or then they have whamoozed into the higher realms as this one could kill any kind and jovial soul full of oomph and zest for life. Oh well, whatevv-verr-rr I say.... I am ju-ust going to enjoy my days of rest, re-coup and cocooning. Maybe am just flying over the cocoo's nest and have fallen in without noticing it.... YOH!!!!!
BF13 :-)
I am sitting here a little blank and almost in a zombie mode as I am sort of out of my body in my state of DON'T CARE, DON'T KNOW AND DON'T GIVE A DAMN. Plans seem to have this funny way of going way out of the of the order and am just shrugging my shoulders and throwing my hands in the air.
Last few weeks I have been planning to go to QLD to visit my family and friends.... well that's outta window it seems as I have now just no interest at this moment and I am suppose to drive off on the 1st of November. Finances, work, health and general dis-interest are standing in my way like a bloody brick wall that I just could not be bothered to climb over at the moment. I COULD get over it, but it just seems like too much bother at the moment. What is it in plans and me that when I plan they tend to stand on the head in the end and nothing seems to come out of them and when I don't plan life just seems to sweep me along in it's own rhythm and pace and I am just floating along doing whatever it is that I am doing at the time.
So I have resolved to wing it as the Masters are supposedly doing and just see way the River of My Life takes me. Surprises as long as they are pleasant and bring joy are good so this is what I am resolving in getting.... bugger, but that is a plan, too. Oh well, I will just sit and wait. Eventually the Heavens will show me the way I am suppose to travel. It seems I am in a sort of Hiatus at the moment. Quite before the storm is it or is it the eye of the storm...? I don't mind storms as long as they have a moderate power to cleanse and re-new a tired and worn out energy and replace the heavy and seemingly pointless existence with something fresh, new and vibrant. Blow the cobwebs out of one's life and being and wake me up from the deep slumber I seem to fall into every so often. It is time for the quite and then time for the action.
The World just keeps on turning and I on it with countless others whom also feel sleepy and lame. I actually don't care and don't find it too disturbing. It's like I have been placed inside a cocoon and am kept somewhat separate and all the sounds and surrounds seem muffled and separated from me. I look, but am removed from the masses and last week and this week am truly removed as am not even going to work, but am impulsed to stay home and cocoon myself so totally that even being in the shops to get milk is almost impossibly trying. What is going on in the World and especially in mine?
My higher friends Leyla and Zach have been quiet and very un-noticed. Hmmm.... talk about integrating totally or then they have whamoozed into the higher realms as this one could kill any kind and jovial soul full of oomph and zest for life. Oh well, whatevv-verr-rr I say.... I am ju-ust going to enjoy my days of rest, re-coup and cocooning. Maybe am just flying over the cocoo's nest and have fallen in without noticing it.... YOH!!!!!
BF13 :-)
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